I like to be few things, talk and act a certain way. To Feel nostalgia about certain things but, i remain unchallenged, unbothered.
To deal with decisions my way, i want fear to thumb my heart every waking minute. I may not be ready but, i would like to know.
Play games with stakes, with everything i got. Probably it’s not all glory like i dream, i may not be competent to begin with. But i know me, i can romanticize quite odd things that are not odd.
These are the things i can control, then things i have no control over.
I want people to be obsessed with me, go crazy about every word and thing i do. And i want to deserve it. There is a chance i can come off lame. Then again i want to know.
I day dream about many things, won’t necessarily expect them to become true. For me it’s entertainment, that have no roots to reality.i won’t mind if any of this become true, then again there is a reason why I dream about them.
These are about things i cant control, then few things that solely depends on me. It’s so rare to be in a position where you know everything and you get to make a decision.
I fear everyday and pray every chance that
when time comes. I hope i won’t be lazy and choose promise of sweet future. There won’t be second chances the next day. With clear understanding of consequences, What is believed must be acted. And don’t be cheap in paying the price.